Stuff

This week was interesting. My CT and I are getting along better, which is great. Starting tomorrow I will also be in a 6th grade Humanities classroom. The kids are a pain, and I hate the Make Your Day program. I don't know if teaching is what I want to do. I want to teach, not convince kids to shut up and listen. I want them to want to learn. If I don't teach what else would I do? My dad talked about me bartending to fall back on. Super. Honestly I don't know if anything would make me happy at this point. So I have no idea what's going to happen. This weekend I did nothing except watch LOST. Which I'm incredibly tired of. I don't care what happens in their exciting lives. I'd like my own exciting life! But I don't know how to do that. Wha wha, I know.

Yesterday I had my first university supervisor visit. He watched me fumble and get walked all over by the students. And then watch me cry... twice! Not during class.

I've been watching LOST nonstop. Just discovered it on Netflix.

Haven't worked out, in forever.

Ugh. So tired, and beat, and unhappy!

DRRRRRRRUNK!

I can't believe  Chriss is getting married tomorrow. Super sad to be single, super excited for her, super bummed I'm not in the wedding. UGH. Super excited to see N. West and A. Franke. Lol No idea.

A very depressing day.
I am incapable of doing anything. No work out. Excessive eating. I have a done of work to do.
All I've been doing is watching movies. I'm on my third. I wish I weren't like this. And I have no idea how to change it.

Girls. Part 2.

My age girls. Shiiiiiiit. Some are so stupid!

I of course did not work out. I kept trying to convince myself to go to the gym or take Goose on a walk, and then kept giving myself reasons/excuses not to. I hate what I do to myself.

SNOW DAY!!

I'm excited to go back to bed! This is the plus to being a teacher. Snow days, Holidays, only working a little over 180 days a year! Although for me the bad part has been waking up early and on time. This morning of course I'm awake. I'm sure it will be easy to fall back asleep, but still, it figures. Today will be homework, sleeping in and working out! 

Day 1, Week 2

I went to the Y this morning!!! That's right! At 5am, I went swimming, it felt great. Now I'm of course exhausted. 

Today at school my university supervisor stopped by and discussed my student teaching with my cooperating teacher and the school principal. This is not going to be easy. I'm still a little confused. I'm hoping all the bumps will iron themselves out as the days and weeks progress. I do have to teach something for a half hour on January 24 in front of the US. That's going to be intimidating!! 

The kids thus far are great. I get a little bored when I'm just watching my CT. But today I got in front of the kids, instructed them on their writing prompt and then discussed the events that happened Saturday in Arizona. We discussed the 1st and 2nd Amendments in relation to what happened. The freedom of assembly, and the right to bare arms. Then they were to write what they thought about 18 year olds be able to own shotguns/rifles. A few thought they should be able to own them earlier than 18, one student said 5th graders should be able to!! I was surprised how many students thought most 18 year olds were not mature enough to own guns. Anyways, I instructed them during that time. 

I'm watching the DUCKS game, and soon going to go to bed, before it ends! So GO DUCKS!!

I love Jersey Shore.

and TGIF, tomorrow. I'll have more to post this weekend, about this last week.

I took Goose on a nice walk after work, and then ate breakfast for dinner and cheez-its and ice cream! UGH. I never allow myself to get ahead. F.

Day 2...

...And I'm exhausted. I know there was a bunch of things I wanted to write about, but frankly, I want to go to bed instead!

OH!!! I GOT MY OWN DESK! I bought a dog frame so I can put a picture of Goose in and put it on my desk!

Middle School kids are ridiculous, no wonder everyone thinks Middle School teachers are saints! Eeesh. My CT sure is.

One of the students had on jeans that I own... it made me reconsider my wardrobe.

I need to workout, but I am so damn tired. I'm going to bed realllly early. I'm walking Goose tomorrow when I get home.

YMCA?

Could I make it to the Y tomorrow at 5am?? Ugh... I should. I definitely should.

First Day as a Student Teacher

Today has been fairly exciting. I had a meeting with my advisor (3rd advisor) at Edmonds Community College to discuss ST.

After getting out of there 45 minutes behind schedule, I was starving! So I hauled balls to somewhere to eat, for whatever reason I chose McDonalds, and had something gross that I'm sure was millions of calories. But since I was soooo hungry and I ate the food so fast I went to Starbucks too and got dessert. I didn't eat it all, but dang. Tomorrow I'm packing my lunch. AND speaking of which I just remembered I wanted to buy carrots tonight, which I forgot.

Once I finally got to my Middle School, I got to talk with my cooperating teacher, who is great. She is such a tiny little woman, I can't believe she's been a middle school teacher for the better part of a decade. She is excited to have me, and excited to help me learn how to be a teacher.

I also met with the principal, she seems great! I can't believe I met with the principal the first day! I hope I can keep a good relationship up with her so that she can give me a killer recommendation. My advisor told us today that there are four most important people in the school, obviously my cooperating teacher and the principal. The others are the office secretary and the school janitor. I have met with all of them today! I felt incredibly accomplished.

AND the janitor asked if I wanted my own desk brought into the classroom! I told him I wasn't sure, mostly because I was in disbelief that that was actually an option. Later I told my CT (cooperating teacher) that if it was okay with her, I'd love to have one. So I may be getting my own teacher's desk! Ahhh!

As I was watching the students stand in front of the school waiting for their buses I kept thinking that it was only 10 years ago that I was in 8th grade. It's crazy to think about. And what's even crazier is that my 8th grade history teacher, Mr. Simicich was the teacher who really impacted me through history. And the coolest unit I remember him doing was the unit on the Civil War. He brought in all sorts of things from that era and now, I will be starting full time teaching with the Civil War unit. It's kind of exciting!

AND I'm teaching US History, Literature and Health! Should be interesting.

2011

Today is January 1, 2011, or 1-1-11. I can't stand this holiday, or I should say yesterday's holiday. I hate having to feel like I should be one half of a couple to really bring in the New Year properly. Instead I went to 1st Street in Snohomish, which was laaaaaame. Booo Happy New Year!

I have a couple NY resolutions, the first is obviously to lose weight, the second is to feel fantastic about myself and the third is too hot to actually be posted. But a third exists and I know what it is, and that's all that matters.

1-1-11 has been pretty lame so far, although, not bad. I sat around doing absolutely nothing today. Except to leave around 5pm to go to Safeway to get some Blood Orange Sorbet and three DVDs, all of which I watched/watching tonight.

Tomorrow I need to figure out what is suppose to be happening for this upcoming week and my student teaching. But of course I have not heard from any of my advisors about anything regarding ST in the last two weeks. So I have NO idea what is going on, or when or where. It's awesome. I emailed Frank, a rude-ish letter asking him what the hell is going on, without the expletives of course. I told him I thought I would be getting help from my advisors regarding ST. Hopefully he feels like a douche and cries about it. But since that is unlikely, it would work for me, if he'd just respond tonight or early tomorrow. Now granted I have not been very active in figuring out what's going on next week, but it was my break! And I was thinking that if my advisors didn't seem bothered, neither should I. I now think I was just lying to myself about being lazy and procrastinating as usual.

I wish I could be excited for the New Year. But I'm not. I just hope it doesn't suck like 2010 did. I'd love to say 2011 is the best year thus far!!! How could I make that happen?? Lose weight, feel great about my body. Get a job while ST or immediately after. And then get a real teaching job somewhere, and then MOVE. AND THEN, possibly a boyfriend. Oh I'd like that. That could make it a very very good year.

ALSO, my mom gave me $100 for the week (she's in Orlando, FL), so that means I have to workout for 10 hours this week. Get to it girl.