I am not enjoying student teaching. The majority of my time is spent on trying to get the students to pay attention and stop talking. It is simply exhausting and stressful. I hate the classroom management aspect of teaching. I did not expect the students to be little angels, but I expected more than what I'm getting. I am told I am weak in classroom management, which I probably am, but I'm beginning to think, neither of us have any control over the students. I am so tired of threatening them with staying in at break or lunch, and putting them on steps. I'd really love to just get a switch and start beating them. But since that's probably not okay, I won't be doing that. I really like the majority of the students individually, but once you put them all together it is like being put in one of Dante's nine circles of hell! I am incredibly worried that this is not for me, however I am trying to remember that maybe once I have my own classroom that starts in September it'll be easier and better.
As of now I am just tired, headachy and stressed. I seriously need a massage or something soothing!
ALSO I am no longer teaching Health, evidently some of the students did not want me to, because they would be embarrassed to talk in front of me... but not in front of their peers? Who am I going to judge? I mean really.
So now I have a 6TH GRADE HUMANITIES class 6th period. This is NOT what I want to be teaching. I really think I'm going to need to get my master's and Ph.D so that I can teach in a community college or university. My love is for history, not convincing kids they need to shut up and learn.
Tomorrow my CT is gone, so I will be teaching first and second blocks. I'm half dreading it and half excited for it. One student, who I am going to call He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named (they have a few things in common... trust me) is going to make the class incredibly difficult, I just know it. He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named was "great" today and yesterday, so I know he's going to make things impossible tomorrow. He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named is one of those kids who thinks he's a gangster... in Monroe... and all the other students love him, I suppose his Death Eaters (ok I'll stop)... And the girls think he is fantastic. Of course, starting early with the bad boy syndrome. There is this new shoe on A&E called "Scared Straight," this student should definitely be on that show. The worst part, this kid is really smart, and since he is so smart he is also very manipulative, and since I basically know nothing... I get manipulated, which sucks.
Speaking of Death Eaters and He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named, I am going to the Harry Potter Exhibition with my mom on Sunday, we're very excited... well I'm excited.
On Saturday, I am going to my first roller derby practice! I am not necessarily joining anything, but Jet City Rollergirls (http://www.jetcityrollergirls.com/) in Everett have open learning sessions every weekend, and then women can choose to join the league. I am pretty excited. I'm pretty much just psyched for this whole weekend.
AND on Thursday I'm suppose to be getting my happy lamp, again exciting.
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